Great Sadness over a Trivial Concern

As the title may have indicated, I am very sad right now. I woke up this afternoon (as I do on most Saturday afternoons after catching up on sleep). I saw on my phone that I had missed several calls because it was on silent and I didn't hear it. I saw that both of my parents had called me several times, and that there were several messages. It turns out that, today, my father and sister were visiting the Military Academy at West Point, which is less than a hundred miles from here. They had been trying to get a hold of my because they were going to stop by and visit briefly.

By the time I got their messages, they were already on their way home, having not been able to reach me. I called my dad, and my sister answered and told me as much (that they were on their way home.) My verbal response was, "oh, well," as is my response in any situation where a loss on my part can in any way be considered my fault. I must say that this displeased me greatly. I realize that, in the long run, this annoyance has very little meaning. Despite this, I am very sad.

I decided to go get some food where I believe that at least two people wished they hadn't said, "how's it going?" in passing. They had to listen to my recount of why today is a bad day.

To make matters worse, today would have been an ideal day for them to have visited as there are "Winterfest" activities going on all weekend on campus. I must say that I haven't been this sad since shortly after leaving NYLF/tech. It seems to me that I had a legitimate concern in the case of NYLF/tech, but I will see my family again in a few weeks during spring break.

Well, I'm glad that is out of my system. I feel much better (and have my composure back as well.) I am considering not publishing this post, but I have a feeling that that would undo the "getting it out of my system" that has been done by writing it.

P.S. If you're clever, you can read the redacted part of this post.